pro-activity

and, i said that tomorrow is just another day.

what a good way to start "the" day. and, another day it is. there are reasons why i don't really like staying at home. even though it has its own advantages, it cannot outweigh the misunderstanding and other things happening inside it.

1. I am Always Wrong

never, in recent memory, have i been appreciated for my efforts inside the house - even my cooking that feeds them every meal. oh my.

2. I am Always Judged

i have been called a drug addict, nagbabahay ng babae and stuff. i have also been called a liar. and they tell me that the academic things i do are only fronts of what i've been doing. grabe lang ah.

3. Everyday is Sermon Day

everything i do is connected to a sermon. which will lead to how my parents raised me. but the question is, isn't she the one who raised me? so, who is on the chopping block now? illogical person.

i have other things to enumerate. but that would be like me destroying my own family.

the challenge now is how to be proactive with these kind of people around.

unanswered questions

why can i not be the normal teenager who gets to be asked who, what, when and where?

why do people at home accuse me instead of knowing the real reason behind everything i do?

why do i get to be the drug addict? the shameless sex addict? the gambler?

why?

blah

last week was a bit off. i didn't know what happened to me. :(

sports is a fickle friend

some people do not understand what it is to be involved in sports.

since i entered college, my lifestyle has been more active. it might have been a consequence of joining IE Club or being in the College of Engineering.

Eng'g has a very competitive nature which is exemplified by different competitions here and there. some of which are Eng'g Cup, Marketing Congress and the much-awaited Eng'g Week.

anyway, ever since i entered Eng'g i have been more participative in activities like sports and dancing. this is very ironic from my high school lifestyle which revolved around academics.

lately, i suffered an injury caused by the tearing of ankle ligaments. this is a very common injury in sports. so, i didn't fret because i know that if cared for, the ankle will slowly return to its original state.

however, others seems to abhor the fact that i continue to be active with swollen ankles. i know my limitations and that i cannot push myself in this condition. also, they are telling me that i should stop playing for me not te get injured again.

but, hey, i am an athlete. no injury can stop me from playing the game that i love. this is what they do not understand. it might seem insensitive, but i guess that they didn't have a sport that they are passionate about. i care about my physical well-being. but, i also care about doing the stuff that i love.

UP also taught me to be a fan of my own alma mater. when i was in high school, i didn't believe that our athletes can take on other schools. we'd always be shouting, "quizbee na lang!" just to trash talk the opponent. however, introduced to the UP culture, i have always believed in the Fighting Maroons.

we may be the whipping boys of the men's basketball, but our other sports have the power to counter every enemy move.

so, last sunday, i was watching UP's opening game of the season. which we lost, by the way. then, i was excited for the first quarter because the Maroons where doing good. i didn't notice that i was shout YEAH and NICE and GOOD JOB whenever the players are able to score a basket.

now, this uncle of mine reprimanded me that i was a noisy watcher. if i could just tell him, "kung makita mo ang mga Amerikano manood, mas malala pa sila sa akin"

i do not know if i should pity him for not knowing how it is to be a fan. maybe someday, he'll learn from it.

so, this is for now. i must remember that i have a new diet to try. eat more, that is. :)

the new world

the world needs less of you.

a person who does not know how to value other's feelings. or even think that other's opinions are worth listening to.

what is the matter with you?

do you think that the world revolves around you? i am so sorry for Galileo has already proven that the world revolves around the sun. and unless you are 333000 times the size or the Earth or 5800K on the outside, that isn't you.

i am also sorry to tell you that you sound very much like a social climber to me by talking about things you don't usually do. and, by saying you like things you don't usually experience. it would be better if you'd tell them to us after you have fully understood the feeling of experiencing such things.

also, i am very sorry to tell you that you don't stand by what you say. what is discipline if you don't know how to flush the toilet. what is time management if you let others wait just so you could watch your shows on YouTube. what is compassion if you don't know how to treat others well.

that is so cool right?

anyway, i am enjoying this non-talking agreement we are having. and, also, i would like to tell you that i do things to piss you off without you knowing it was me. :)

P.S. i am sorry, it was only one time. but, you ought to learn your lesson.

P.P.S. this is so un-proactive of me.

fell apart

can i just rant?

CRS, hindi ko alam kung anong problema mo. bakit ka nagbreakdown sa sem na kailangan ko ng GEs. i just dont understand how you and your team works. sooooooooobrang bagal. it's not that i am putting pressure or expecting too much. i only mean to say that we deserve to have a better and more useful enlisting program.

akala ba ninyo na madaling humanap ng subjects, manually? is it not enough that regular students do not have priority? now, we, non-TriCol students, need to battle with the TriCol students for GEs offered by such colleges?

e, anak ng teteng naman oh. the enrollment process that i normally finish in two days would now take 3. your team, needs to get their act straight. i would really really be annoyed if i don't get all the subjects i need.

you know what? before this unfortunate event, i found two GEs that have a lot of slots left. and, these are GEs that i really need. so, i am really pissed off at you and your team.

i have forgiven you for the real-time enlistment last Summer 2007. but now, i do not know if i can trust you anymore.